meh
i’m feeling very stressed right now. work is crazy. i’m on the fence about a lot of things involving my future. i’m too scared to make the moves i want to make, but i’m currently unhappy with those things. i did just get my christmas bonus (early, but just in time) so i am excited to pay some bills and start my christmas shopping. sounds lame, but i really do get joy in buying things for other people. i didn’t get to do any christmas shopping last year ‘cuz i was broke then, too.
i’m also keeping some bottled up frustrations about someone. this person has just been grating on me. i don’t usually keep friends that make me feel like shit, but i don’t have the nerve to talk to this person about it. i just keep bitching about it to shawn or stacey, and i’m sure they’re sick of it too. the thing that prevents me from talking to this person is that they have a way of arguing with me that always makes me just feel stupid and gross. so i can’t bring myself to talk to them about it.
aw well, i suppose this too shall pass.